thoughts about music and getting a little older

Sunday, May 5, 2013

In Which I Go to a Concert Alone for the First Time Since I was 20.

  



     The last time I went to a concert alone, I rode my bike through the rolling hills of the Connecticut River Valley in Western Massachusetts to a small church where I saw of all things a hardcore punk concert. I honestly can't even remember who was playing-Minutemen? Suicidal Tendencies? I was one of maybe two women there and for sure the only person on a janky old 10 speed.



     I snapped up a ticket months ago to see James Blake, a young British musician with the most hauntingly beautiful voice. I had his first album on constant repeat when I was traveling recently and his soothing voice and electronic sound made a perfect backdrop to the insanity of airline travel. 
      At one point three friends were going to be at the show but over the course of a few weeks each one had family commitments that prevented them from attending so I asked one of my young free spirited friends at the last minute. After a series of comical mishaps of modern communication, I ended up getting dropped off since my friend thought I had bought his ticket and I thought he was buying his own. This happens more often than one would think but there I was.



     Although I had run into five people I knew at the last show at First Avenue, it was clear from the youthful crowd that I was not going to know anyone this time. I did what any modern mom would do in this situation - pulled out my phone and starting messaging my daughter time zones away, wishing she could enjoy James Blake with me and we could take in the scene together. I lamented my solitary predicament and she reminded me that her music loving friend Henry went to lots of shows alone before he died unexpectedly last month so I could soldier on alone. Mother-daughter pep talks are wonderful no matter what the medium or time of night.



     The concert began with a body-thumping baseline that vibrated every single aging cell in my body. My nose was tickling and my heart was trying to escape through my throat. I had  to retreat to higher ground with as much dignity as possible. There was however a lot of canoodling in the old lady balcony that night, which should not have surprised me  given James Blake's  sultry voice. However when the lanky blonde next to me decided this was the perfect time to show her male friend just how much she was into him, I had to find another vantage point.  These awkward public displays of passion are the kind of concert predicaments that are way more fun to laugh about with a friend or daughter by your side.

     
not sleazy at all
 Back in the 80’s when I went out dancing in NY and SF or went to hear live music I was constantly surrounded by lust so I should not have been surprised given the age group of my fellow James Blake fans- I had just forgotten about that part of the music scene. Life is full of surprises no matter what the decade.
     Love and Peace.